FAREWELL TO YEAR 2010

Well another yr has come to an end n m jst so happy that finally dis yr has come to an end.The yr started on a bad note and ended too on a bad note and one after another bad mis-happenings followed but there are few things,people that jst happened for the good.

Well i really dont want to give an account of all d bad things that happened but wotever it was sumhow deep down it really made me more stronger& tougher.Some relations that I thought were to stay forever dey ended being fake, meaningless and obviously ended.People for whom i thought are really imp for me or I was of sum importance to them ended being selfish,fake,unfaithful and who never were my true friends and disappointed me in every sphere when i needed them the most.I personally lost so much in 2010 which when i think about brings tears to my eyes but when I look in a more broader prospective I think probably it happened for some good.

Though I lost more than wot i now have with me dis yr but m really happy with wot few things & few people I now have.I really dont have much words to describe this year but would luv to say a warm thnx to people who made this year special for me in dere own way....

So to start with I got the opportunity to have some very special friends like SB,Chirag Bhaiya,ChickyBhaiya,Manvi,Ritwik,Smriti,Chani,Pranay,Shubham,Ruchika,Amandeep,Imran,Samad,Dushyant & Navneet,Rishabh (my lovey-dovey couple), MS..............And obviously my other friends who have always been a support to me and have constantly showered me with dere unconditional love and care........

And yeah i would want to say thnx to the yr 2010 aswell because it has for sure made me a better person ,ended all the unwanted relations and has taught me some real important lessons of life.

I hope the coming year brings lots n lots of luv n happiness for everyone.WISH EVERY1 A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011......CHEERS..............................

ANGELS

Hi every1.sitting to write after really long........this one is jst dedicated to my frnz - SB,Chirag Bhaiya,Ritwik & Manvi so only gonna talk about dem.This yr strted on a real bad note for me n 90% of all te worst things happened but d most beautufil thing or d best gift dat god gave me dis yr was my four angel frnz.They came into my life when probably i was in d worst phase of my life, not knowing anything just cluless abt everything but dey are sumbody who supported me all through wid dere luv n care..........

Me, ritwik n manvi share a bond wihch is jst quiet special in itself.We fight,abuse each oda,get frustated ova each oda but d very nxt moment we are back together talking 2 each oda for hours continously.we guys dnt meet to often but wheneva we do we always ve a gala tym....

Coming to SB & Chirag Bhaiya dese guys are sumbody whom i admire n respect 'd most'.i personally ve never seen so caring,so luving,so decent n so simple guys dat m just tooo in luv wid both of dem.Again wid both of dem i share a very strange but luvin relation dat is very precious to me and i ll always gonna protect dis bond no matter what.Wheneva wid dem m always smiling,coz wid dem life seems to b so easy dat i jst forget all my tensions,worries and lost in a dreamland where things automatically becums hassle free.Neva ever i ve got a negative vibe from any of them n neva will also coz both of dem hold a real imp place in my heart,in my life dat no amt of misunderstanding or fight cn replace dis respect or luv for dem.I do miss dem coz i rarely get to see them,specialy SB coz i dont get to talk to him dat much.

Just writting dis not to just show how gud i feel but to show dat i feel deeply for you my frnz n each one of u is a part of me n care n luv u guys heaps.I know i do behave weird n possessive at times but its jst dat i wnt to spend mre tym wid you n nt miss a single chance to say dat i really dnt wnt to lose you eva n yeah thank u so much 4 being dere when i needed u all n thnx for being so wonderful n amazing.........MUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

WORDS UNSPOKEN

Hey frnzz.......well another weekend is here n wid dis comes another story (True one)....I have dis frnd (sry cnt disclose his name so will name him SB for this blog)......Recently we have strted chattin alot, late night talks n stuff and today he gave me dis idea of writing abt his story.......
Its a very normal story of jst another guy who is very good looking,smart cool dude n quite popular among girls, always surrounded with them .........As having the characteristics of a typical guy , he didnt believed in the word 'LOVE' and dated every single pretty girl he could which were not more dan mere time pass for him........In school time i think guys are like that only and there are just in a realationship (if dey are in any) b'coz they think its a very cool n essential thing to have a nice girlfriend and probably they are into it just for the sake of it or call it 'peer pressure'.I still remember that committment was sumthing i never heard about in school and specially from guyz........At this age, girls are mere pieces of objects for guyz who dey keep with them till dey are happy and the moment they think dat they are sticking too much to a girl (which obviously is not gud for their status), they call that its over........
Coming back to my friend's case , he too was immature n didnt knew wot the feeling of luv is,the feeling of being wid sumone is until he met dis girl in one if his coaching institutes.......He saw her , really liked her, thought its jst infatuation...........Days passed but SB just couldnt get over her neither he had the guts to go n tell her that he really liked her......The girl also seemed interested in SB but unfortunately even she did not say nything.With time SB realised that it was just not infatuation or attraction, it was LOVE........The feeling he used to get whenever he used to see dis girl was completely different from his past affairs and was much beyond nything......He never felt like dis before......More dayz passed and finally SB got to know that the girl was dating someone else n he was shattered and heartbroken but the last time when he saw the girl, she did said sumthing with her eyes to SB which he know realises was too late to knw - That girl too liked SB but she did not said nything to him b'coz all that while she waited that probably SB would approac her once....that sweet girl jst wanted SB once to tell her dat he really luved her........
Friends dis is jst put up in front of you all to realise the beautiful feeling of Luv , to tell to ppl you really luv n care for........Realise the importance of every moment in life so that later in life u dnt have to regret ever......There are thousand's of people like ME n SB who have lost dere luv once but we dont want thousand's of more people to come n say that we lost our luv too.....
I wish that none of you should suffer thru the pain of losing someone u really luv so just be bold enuf to express your luv.....n yeah a luv relation is not only b/w boyfriends / girlfriends but it can be any relation, be it a sister -brother, close friends or any other relation.Value the people in your life rite now.....
Lastly i wanna say that guys start respecting "WOMEN''.Even if you give little luv n respect to them , you will get thousand times more luv in return.Luv them truely n deeply from your heart.

Do leave ur valuable comments......Have a great weekend.

EXPECTATIONS

Why did god create the word 'EXPECTATIONS" or why dis feeling of 'EXPECTING' nything from nyone.Life would have been so much hassle free widout these things.....Why on earth do we expect things from people.Why cnt we jst get luv in return when we expect luv from the other person? Why always hatred or rejection? Why when we luv sumbody start expecting that he / she shld also luv us in the same manner as we do?

I knw that i shld not xpect luv in return from the person i luv but isnt't it natural that we only xpect from people who we really care for, whom we really luv.When someone so close to you says that hey plz dnt xpect nything from me in return, dnt u feel saying dat got damm it i really luv u n care for u n i xpect you to reciprocate in the same manner.I wish i could tell him the same thing dat i jst wnt little luv n care from you.I wish i could tell him dat hey i really LUV U.But obviously i cnt tell him dat how much i luv him.I knw dat he will never be mine but still i xpect him 2 b wid me, i knw dat he will never luv me but still i xpect him 2 luv me little............God please gve me strenth so that i can forget him which obviously i dnt xpect will happen ever.

SCHOOL DAYS

So here i m to write abt d mst beautiful,troublesome,amzing,stupid dayz of my life.School -for many of us its initially abt books,study,teachers n all d nonsense n annoying things we cn think abt as we are too immature at that particular phase of life.Believe me i actually hated goin 2 school so much dat at times i used 2 lie 2 my mum dat m nt feeling well n stuff..........but jst after few hours i used to play wid my barbie dolls,dress dem up n even i luved to stand dere in front of mirrors for long hours to beautify myself......lol....I actually hated goin 2 school coz i was jst nt gud in studies, dey never xcited me n i always knew dat dey were nt meant for me at all..I still remember my maths teacher who used 2 tell me questions jinse mai sirf paas ho jati thi woh bhi thodi mushkil se hi........but yeah i was always a popular kid or grl among my frnz, teachers n boyz too....hehe......

It was fun to be hindi cultural secretary though i neva ever spoke on hindi thoughts, it was only english thoughts i used to speak on in school's assembly as Rahul Bahri (English cultural secretary) was my gud frnd n i still remember ppl used to pull our leg so much wid each other's names coz mst of the time we were together only but yeah only he n me knew dat we neva felt nything for each other.Kushal,Dushyant, Nitish were together since the very begining of school n by god's grace dey are still in my life being my really gud frnz.Well i never had a major fight wid dushyant n nitish but yeah wid Kushal i ve had sum terrible fights thinking dat nw we will neva talk in life again but me being d sensible one didnt allow him to go out of my life....(Kushal i really luv u n u knw dat u r mre egoistic but still i luv being wid u)...............

Now coming straight to 11th class, i tell u i was so pissed off coz all frnz were now in different sections having different subjects n i was left all alne in Arts section.. *sighhh*.I took sum tym 2 adjust but slowly made new frnz - Akriti, Sunny, Kirti,Varun, Ramika, Eshaan n many mre but dese guyz were the reason i strted liking my new class n new atmosphere.But hey how cn i 4get to write abt my mst precious frnd - Nipun Soin...He came in 8th standard to our school n since den he is one of the most important part of me.......though i fight alot wid him but respect him n care for him more dan nything else..... P.T. grounds, lawn, canteen were our best hangout places n even classrooms (not ours but dusro ki)......School is one of the best thing that happens to nyone in the entire human life but we only realise dis fact once we are over it, i mean when in school we are always like when will school finish so dat dere will be no burden of studies,no more stupid uniforms (though i simply luved my winter uniforms), no restrictionsn bla bla.......I too was stupid having all dese thoughts in mind n wanted to get out of school asap till i realised i was jst running away from all the beautiful yrs,moments of my life.I wish i could go back to those days again n njoy every moment dat at sum point of i thought why is happening to me.......I wnt 2 say all those things jo us tym kabhi nahi kahin n i still regret ki kaash i wuld ve said those things at that tym to probably i wuld have been mre happy n content.Lots mre to come from my school days but abhi jst leaving it here only.Frnz jst be happy always n take life as it comes......If sumthin bad is happening den dnt jst stop trying......rise up from dere n strt another chapter....Failure is jst nt meant for nyone of us like studies.......hehe.....I ve failed in so many attempts in life but if i wuld have stopped trying den mai yahan hoti hi nahi aaj.....So if i cn do cum out of it m sure nyone n everyone out dere can coz at times m the most idiotic,foolish person n as all my frnz say dat m a big drame baaz n cry baby......but still dey luv me for what i m n i luv being pampered.......luv to all my frnzzzzzz...........

Lost Luv.......

First of all thnx manyu 4 giving me d idea of dis title and that msg which u sent.Manyu is one of few frnz who knws abt d thing m gonna write so he encouraged me 2 put dis up actually in front of all.....Sum people say that when we luv sumbody,we shld b clear of all d ups n downs of it, of the consequences n bla bla.............but hey is luv sumthin dat happens with prior knowledge........... For me n many out dere m sure its nt d case...............m nt sum1 who knws d proper defination of it but to me its jst a nice feeling that takes u away from all d difficulties of life,terrible situations,weird people n oda things which in luv seems jst 2 b amazing......

Luving sum1 doesnt mean to b wid d person u luv 24/7 or being possessive..True luv only grows wid tym n neva ever ends, no matter whether d person u luv is wid u or nt.I too, cannot be wid the person i luv b'cause he doesnt luv me n doesnt feel for me d way i feel for him.But dat doesnt stop me from luving him.

Whenever i see him, m so happy from inside n i so wnt 2 hug him , kiss him n dere are thousands of oda feelings dat strt flowing inside me but unfortunately i jst cannot xpress all dis as i fear wht if he comes to knw n den wot little we talk nw even dat will be stopped.I used 2 crib,cry n do all d stupid things i could jst to have him besides me but i eventually realised dat no matter wotever i do i jst cannot have him in my life........I sleep wid his thoughts,get up wid his thoughts in mind n dream of him only.I live another life wid him in my dreams where we r happy together,luv eachoda so much n dat r luv for each oda is jst enuf 2 survive.But reality is so different altogether.......

Now instead of crying n cribbing i ve made my mind to jst b 'frnz' wid him (though deep inside i truely luv him).......I jst wnt 2 say 2 everyone dat if u luv sumone say it dere n den , dnt jst wait for d 'right tym' to come.No tym is right or wrong to do d right things.......Learn to xpress ur feelings as its very imp, atleast u wnt regret it later.......

From d very bottom of my heart i wnt 2 say dat i truely n deeply luv u all - My family, frnz (Akriti,Ramika,Namrata,Tanu,Diti,Nipun,Kushal,Dushyant,Eshaan,Sagar,Abhinav,Manyu,Shashank Bharti,Nitish,Kirti, Sunny,Tanush,Manu ,Neha n everyone else),my cousins-Emily n Noura (my babies i miss u both so much).Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Special mention to Saurabh Chaudhary , Amit Saini n Sakshi Narang (For dere unsaid support n luv)