Lost Luv.......

First of all thnx manyu 4 giving me d idea of dis title and that msg which u sent.Manyu is one of few frnz who knws abt d thing m gonna write so he encouraged me 2 put dis up actually in front of all.....Sum people say that when we luv sumbody,we shld b clear of all d ups n downs of it, of the consequences n bla bla.............but hey is luv sumthin dat happens with prior knowledge........... For me n many out dere m sure its nt d case...............m nt sum1 who knws d proper defination of it but to me its jst a nice feeling that takes u away from all d difficulties of life,terrible situations,weird people n oda things which in luv seems jst 2 b amazing......

Luving sum1 doesnt mean to b wid d person u luv 24/7 or being possessive..True luv only grows wid tym n neva ever ends, no matter whether d person u luv is wid u or nt.I too, cannot be wid the person i luv b'cause he doesnt luv me n doesnt feel for me d way i feel for him.But dat doesnt stop me from luving him.

Whenever i see him, m so happy from inside n i so wnt 2 hug him , kiss him n dere are thousands of oda feelings dat strt flowing inside me but unfortunately i jst cannot xpress all dis as i fear wht if he comes to knw n den wot little we talk nw even dat will be stopped.I used 2 crib,cry n do all d stupid things i could jst to have him besides me but i eventually realised dat no matter wotever i do i jst cannot have him in my life........I sleep wid his thoughts,get up wid his thoughts in mind n dream of him only.I live another life wid him in my dreams where we r happy together,luv eachoda so much n dat r luv for each oda is jst enuf 2 survive.But reality is so different altogether.......

Now instead of crying n cribbing i ve made my mind to jst b 'frnz' wid him (though deep inside i truely luv him).......I jst wnt 2 say 2 everyone dat if u luv sumone say it dere n den , dnt jst wait for d 'right tym' to come.No tym is right or wrong to do d right things.......Learn to xpress ur feelings as its very imp, atleast u wnt regret it later.......

From d very bottom of my heart i wnt 2 say dat i truely n deeply luv u all - My family, frnz (Akriti,Ramika,Namrata,Tanu,Diti,Nipun,Kushal,Dushyant,Eshaan,Sagar,Abhinav,Manyu,Shashank Bharti,Nitish,Kirti, Sunny,Tanush,Manu ,Neha n everyone else),my cousins-Emily n Noura (my babies i miss u both so much).Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Special mention to Saurabh Chaudhary , Amit Saini n Sakshi Narang (For dere unsaid support n luv)